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So yeah it feels like my life is pretty crazy right now. First off, after a swift kick in the ass from myself, school seems to be going positively better. Maybe thats because I am on top of things, maybe it's because I really don't stress about things so much and I actually do better for some reason. But anyways, things in that department are better.
So first comes the music situation. I am still going to Indianna to try out for Carolina Crown Drum and Bugle Corps. I however, after much consideration have decided that I am only going for the experience this year. What this means is that I am going to try out without the intention of actually marching. I am making a lot of personal decisions right now that are in direct conflict with marching. I plan with all my heart to march the following summer, because I will be better perpared finacially and personally.All the cans people have donated are going to go to gas money to get to indianna and are also going to go towards my fees for Eastside.
I am still greatly a part of Eastside Fury, our show this year is pretty cool and I am being given a bit of a bigger role. I am excited about it, but I am also kinda nervous, it's been a while since I have had a leadership role like that. This is going to be my last year with the group though for the same personal and finacial reasons stated above.
Sadly, the most important thing in my life right now is the whole money issue. I have been trying so hard to find a job around campus. No matter what I do I can't find a job, and it is starting to get very frustrating. I am getting to the point where my spending is exceeding my income, and as much as I try and be an adult and be independent it's hard.
I am in the process of getting one sweet apartment for next year with the best guy on the planet. We are being met with a lot of opposition on the matter, but honestly I don't care because I'm sick of following other people's expectations. I'll be 20 next month, and it's already hitting me a bit. This year I feel like I am growing up so much in such a short time. Maybe because I feel so in love and ready to get things straight. Maybe it's because I'm just Keali, and I worry about the future sooooo much. However, I'm learning that trying to figure out the future doesn't help very much and plans change.
I am thankful for the friends I still have. Whether we are drinking buddies, best friends, or I have only met you once, you mean something to me. You make my life worth living.
Dave, I love you. You are my rock, and whenever I feel like my world is falling apart, I know you are the one person I can count on to pull me out of whatever depressed mood i am in and show me that I am strong enough to deal with whatever is thrown my way. You are worth more to me than anything else. You make me feel like I am most beautiful girl on the face of the planet, just because of who I am, and I could never thank you enough for doing that.
In summary, my life is pretty ok. I refuse to stress over it too much and revel in the fact that I have great people standing behind me. I'm not dying and I still have food in my stomach. Life is good.
So first comes the music situation. I am still going to Indianna to try out for Carolina Crown Drum and Bugle Corps. I however, after much consideration have decided that I am only going for the experience this year. What this means is that I am going to try out without the intention of actually marching. I am making a lot of personal decisions right now that are in direct conflict with marching. I plan with all my heart to march the following summer, because I will be better perpared finacially and personally.All the cans people have donated are going to go to gas money to get to indianna and are also going to go towards my fees for Eastside.
I am still greatly a part of Eastside Fury, our show this year is pretty cool and I am being given a bit of a bigger role. I am excited about it, but I am also kinda nervous, it's been a while since I have had a leadership role like that. This is going to be my last year with the group though for the same personal and finacial reasons stated above.
Sadly, the most important thing in my life right now is the whole money issue. I have been trying so hard to find a job around campus. No matter what I do I can't find a job, and it is starting to get very frustrating. I am getting to the point where my spending is exceeding my income, and as much as I try and be an adult and be independent it's hard.
I am in the process of getting one sweet apartment for next year with the best guy on the planet. We are being met with a lot of opposition on the matter, but honestly I don't care because I'm sick of following other people's expectations. I'll be 20 next month, and it's already hitting me a bit. This year I feel like I am growing up so much in such a short time. Maybe because I feel so in love and ready to get things straight. Maybe it's because I'm just Keali, and I worry about the future sooooo much. However, I'm learning that trying to figure out the future doesn't help very much and plans change.
I am thankful for the friends I still have. Whether we are drinking buddies, best friends, or I have only met you once, you mean something to me. You make my life worth living.
Dave, I love you. You are my rock, and whenever I feel like my world is falling apart, I know you are the one person I can count on to pull me out of whatever depressed mood i am in and show me that I am strong enough to deal with whatever is thrown my way. You are worth more to me than anything else. You make me feel like I am most beautiful girl on the face of the planet, just because of who I am, and I could never thank you enough for doing that.
In summary, my life is pretty ok. I refuse to stress over it too much and revel in the fact that I have great people standing behind me. I'm not dying and I still have food in my stomach. Life is good.
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